A ramble to share my thoughts….
It’s Saturday morning, I’ve woken tired and I’m still feeling the effects of the poison that is alcohol.
My body is suffering, dehydration and energy levels are low. Alcohol must be an addictive substance. My conclusion is that an addiction is; when we do something of our own choice knowing that there is short-term benefit or pleasure but know that it is outweighed by the negative effect at a later point. Therefore a is less than b where a=benefit and b=impact and the impact is greater than the benefit it is not a good choice. Therefore alcohol consumption has a greater negative impact in total than the positive effect of alcohol.
So my “monkey brain” or ego decides that, socially, the short-term effect is that it is good to consume more drink, because my rational brain knows very well that the 2nd tequila following a bottle of red wine, a pint of lager and 2 proseccos doesn’t end well yet doesn’t win in the decision.
To reinforce the conclusion, I couldn’t do parkrun today and parkrun has a very positive impact. Short term pain is outweighed by the physical and mental benefit in this scenario.
There are many choices we make knowing that they are wrong for us. I’m a big advocate of doing things that help you feel good. Was it right to drink so much? Sounds like an obvious “no” Conversely though, I know why I felt it was a good choice. Celebrating with alcoholic drink helps us in intense social situations, we feel less anxious and we want to fit in with others. Those around me will also feel comfortable knowing that I am socialising in the same way.
Choices can be simple or difficult depending on the decision-making process. We make emotional irrational decisions and later justify them with loose logic.
I have decided to be grateful for this moment and hangover and to reach out to people and thank them for the contribution they make to my life. So actually it was too much to drink, however, I can still find space and use it positively.
Ends until more inspiration is felt.